anything

but just don’t feel

I‘m off my head

drugged by

sounds, visions, words

anything but

just don’t feel

steady on the run

manic, mechanic

searching for

the next kick

no pause, no look inside

constantly moving

not to drown

in silence

when I lower

the pace

hide

keep distance

to fend off

the deafening emptiness

inside

drowning

in tightness

sinking

to the ground

of everything

the outside

fades

into the inside

awaking

without any

memory